Letter sent to Guruji on April 1′ 2013.

Dear Guruji,

No matter how much I listen to you, read your words and spend time in your company in silence or in person, I never feel I had enough. I do see you all around me all the time during AMCs, classes, when I am alone or with people. I don’t see GOD in others, I see you in them. But still I feel I am not tired.

Is this greed? Is this desire? Is this attachment to you as person or as Guru or as source of knowledge?

Am I a good seeker? People say a seeker is the one who seeks GOD. I don’t know how to seek GOD, why to seek him when I have everything I need to enjoy every moment of my life in your presence why must I seek GOD? Isn’t seeking Guru equivalent of seeking GOD? But then I did not even seek you. You just happened to me. Was I seeking you, knowledge, Guru or GOD? Why am I not clear about this?

In my own silence many aspects get cleared, many wonderful thoughts come to me. But I feel as if you are sitting in my mind and suggesting them to me. I actually see you speaking them to me. I feel as if I have no originality, no creativity in me. As if I have no intellect of my own. As if you are speaking through me, to me.

You said that once you are connected to GOD he speaks through you. But I feel I am only connected to you. I don’t feel connected to GOD in the way you are connected to him. And I don’t even feel the desire to be connected with GOD.

Then what is knowledge? Why do I not feel the need of knowledge? Am I dumb? What is knowledge Guruji? Is it good words, better arguments to prove point?

Love, Vishakha Ma

Reply from Guruji- Received on April 3′ 2013

Dear,

You have found God.

Who is your Guru? The one in whom you see God or your ideal and love.

I found my God in my Guruji. I was lucky.

What is this knowledge?

There are two kinds of knowledge.

First is to discover your happiness in yourself immaterial of outside circumstances – this is through Sadhana of silence, being with others as a nobody, sharing fearlessly, doing whatever we do with love and to perfection etc.

The second kind of knowledge is to find ways to brining this inside heaven into the outer world so that both you and others experience the loving paradise like Disneyland. This knowledge will start dawning on you when you learn of the present reality and go into silence. You will discover ways of turning it all around for the benefit of everyone. This is Brahmagyan.

Such brahmagyanis enlighten the world. They are required at all times in all corners.

What you experience as me talking to you is when you are silent and wholesome silence speaks to you.

For most people, life is a place to encounter bad Karmas.

For some life is both good and bad. They like to find answers and are looking for wisdom and Guru.

For the fortunate, life is a paradise mostly. They have touched God. They still have some questions and confused. They have found and surrendered to the Guru.  They see Guru in everyone.

The Graduate is the Brahmagyanis. He is just enjoying and playing. Every situation is a challenge and opportunity for a bigger play. He is a nobody and has to do nothing. Yet he does more than anybody else and is the most precious jewel on Earth and heaven.

Keep on. Listen in silence. Life is just an exploration.

~Guruji Rishi Prabhakar