Thank GOD is there:)

Today I witnessed my somebodyness:)
This morning I went to Costco for weekly shopping. After collecting all stuff in my cart I headed for checking out. I felt doubtful if I would be able to unload and load all this into the car! Looking at my cart overflowing, the young man on the counter smilingly asked me if I needed help and promptly I answered “No, Thank you. I am sure I can manage.” In my mind I watched myself thinking – who does he think I am? some week woman who can’t manage life without help? I am a strong woman  yes surely I can manage.

Pushing my much heavy cart I headed for the parking lot. My car was parked very conveniently close to the store and it seemed not so tough to reach it. But again a bird chirped inside – you think some help would have been good? Noway the big voice declared!!!

I parked the cart near my car, opened the trunk and was about to lift the heavy box loaded with multiple things in them. Just then I heard someone speaking to me over my shoulder – “Mam can I help you?” and before I knew I felt my heart jumping with joy. Before the STRONG WOMAN inside me had a chance to say anything, without even looking at who was offering I shouted YES PLEASE. I then turned around to see it was another smiling young guy from the Costco staff. He was actually gathering the carts but seeing my cart felt I needed help.

He looked lke an angle to me at that time. At that moment I realized how I am being taken care of. Happily I asked him ” did GOD send you?” he laughed and said yes. I joyfully shared with him about my hesitation in taking the help and he too shared how his wife too finds it difficult to ask for help. Within next 2 minutes all my stuff was well placed in my van and thanking him for 10th time I left.

On the way I kept thinking on how I always pretend to be strong refusing to take help. If a man offers I feel – what is he thinking? just because I am a woman I can’t do this? And if some woman offers then I feel – come on, I am stronger than you. You take care of yourself, I don’t need help!

No matter who comes forward to help – I am not ready to let go my “I am a strong woman” attitude.
Thank GOD for watching me and my foolish EGO. I suddenly remembered a say I had heard ” GOD gives you not what you want but what you need”